So, it's my 29th birthday today, I'm one year closer to the year that I've kinda always put out as my "deadline". Deadline for what you ask?
lol. Okay no, seriously - I always thought I'd be married with kids & a career (or a career driven/millionaire hubby making it possible for me to become a professional SAHM)... but I'm pretty much NOT EVEN CLOSE to that reality.... nor am I close to my UTOPIA reality.
But I'm zen about it. Really. I'm "livin' in the moment". And I actually mean that for once in my life. My latest bout of darkness has brought anew my optimism for the future. And today, on the day that I'm exactly 365 days away from the deadline that I've been envisioning since the day I knew how, I'm cool. I'm calm. I'm collected.
I'm pretty happy, and I know where I need (and where I WANT) to be next year. (for real, not where I thought I'd be in my 6,7,8 etc... year old mind)
So this morning I thought I'd share 5 of the things I WANNA accomplish in my 29th year. (I tweeted and warned you all about the I WANNA'S coming up today!... )
Not exactly a resolution list, just kind of a guideline to help me in a few months when I'm floating aimlessly through my long -anticipated summer.
1. Get to the gym. I was 80 lbs. thinner just 3 short years ago. I know I can do it, and I think it will help HUGELY with my fibromyalgia, endo and pcos if I get back there. Here's a pic to help you (and me) visualize:
This was about 4 years ago actually - but still... thin(er).
.... searching.... searching..... searching....
Geez - it's super hard to find a current full body shot! That'll show ya right there how much I need to do this!
OMG I can't believe I'm even putting this picture online. You wouldn't believe the verbal thrashing that D got for taking an unprepared shot of me from behind....
But I digress...
2. Music Music Music - gotta get back on the singer/songwriter bandwagon. If nothing else I have learned that me drifting away from my creativity is never ever a good thing. Want to get a recording done or at least mostly done this year. A professional recording. That I can sell on iTunes. I don't care if it's far fetched. I'm doin' it.
3. GET PREGGO! Ok, so I can't exactly control this one, but #'s 1& 2 may help keep me sane and fit and zen and all that good fertility stuff.
4.Go somewhere - this is kinda vague. Ok - go somewhere outside Ontario. D has never left Ontario, and I have a serious travel bug that has remained unfed for 10 years, and may just feed on my eyeballs if I don't satisfy it soon.
5. Become a better/ more involved family member. I need to get over some shit. It's about f'ing time. If that means I have to be more mature than my mother/parents/elder then so be it.
So that's it - hope you enjoyed.... I'm off to finish my quiet (read:early!!!) birthday morning of blogging, tweeting and catching up on my favorite people's lives. Today, more than before, I cherish the new connections and friendships I'm making through this blog and my tweets. I've always had a cloud over me on my birthday - no one seemed to care, or remember, or notice. You all have given me the strength to realize that those people don't matter - and the one's who do are with me all the time in my mind and heart.
Please comment - hearing from you makes me happy!