I'm in a dark hole that I am digging further and further into.
Went for a hike on Saturday, and despite many AMAZING photos, and good company, the one thing that is sticking in my brain are the (earth-shattering-reality-bringing) images of me on the video that D took.
I'm a ginormous fat blob.
I can't believe I let myself get like this.
I weeble. I wobble.
And I was fucking sore yesterday. After a WALK.
And I'm totally stuck in a job that perpetuates my lifestyle of sitting at home, eating, and being depressed. And not having enough time for myself - despite a clear need.
I'm officially too depressed at the moment to be insightful. ...
to be continued......
ps. I posted this to reach out to anyone who may feel like this at times too. You're never alone. And neither am I. Sorry for the uber depressing nature, but it happens to all of us from time to time.